Can Five Dozen Pairs of Shoes Keep Me Here?
What's got whom? I've set my little friends out in my living room, where the sofa used to be. They're organized by function, heel height, and color. How many pairs of red shoes does a girl need? Well, this girl has the red 3" fun sandal for summer - comfortable, yet sexy; the red 4" silk sandal for "First Americans", good for sitting at the banquet table and a few spins on the dance floor; the red Steve Madden 4" shiny patent leather shoe with a peekaboo toe, perfect with jeans or a summer dress and prefers to be seen and not walked in; the more sophisticated/toned down red shoe/sandal for a bit of a serious occasion but still says "I refuse to wear a really serious shoe", then the red salsa dancing shoes, the red silk flat sandals, and the red leather 5" heel zip up boots that my friend from New York calls a FMB. And yes, they have that effect.
My sister asked if I actually wear all my shoes, and the answer is yes. Except for the show shoes (jazz, tap, character) and ballet slippers I pretty much wear them all. Can I live with fewer shoes? Yes. Do I want to? No. Not really. Do you see how this could go round and round?
What does this have to do with traveling? Everything. Picking up and moving, changing your life, is an ordeal. It takes a lot of something, cojones, chutzpah, guts…and I must have some of that because I’m doing it. A few years ago the thought of reinventing myself in a new place just exhausted me. Now, since I was already exhausted I figured move beyond it, like Harry Potter running through a wall to get to that special train.
There is something out there for me. Something incredible. I have to leave where I currently am to get to that place. I feel it tugging at me. It has been for a while now. As it tugs at me to move forward, my footwear holds me down. Now I'm no Carrie Bradshaw, no Manolo Blahniks in my closet, but then it's all relevant, isn't it? This is the weekend I decide who stays and who goes. I'm starting with the shoes as they are the hardest to part with. Three weeks from today I will be in Madrid.